His Work, His Way

I was humbled quite a bit this week. Our whole District was struggling really bad with success. Everyone is doing everything that they are supposed to and the results just havent been showing it at all. It pretty much broke my heart to see everyone struggling when i know that they are doing everything they can. So as I was praying really hard for things to be able to help I got the idea that we should all have a huge fast on one day, have a super short and very spiritual meeting before hand, bring a goal that the Lord inspired them to have, and then just hit it super hard to get the Lord on our side. Everyone added diligence to their covenant list and was working really hard to try and get blessings for Saturday (the day we actually did the fast). So everyone hit it really hard this week, I was so proud and excited for everyone on Saturday when they all came to that short meeting with a burning desire to have the Lords help. The goals everybody brought were about finding people and having hearts changed in their areas. Our goal was to find a specific family that was put into both Elder Myers and My head. It was a cool revalatory experience to find that out. So Saturday we hit it hard, the meeting was super spirit filled, so much you could almost see it. We hit it as hard as we possibly could to find this family, worked every second of the day, skipped lunch and dinner and....nothing. Absolutely nothing. I was pretty upset that night and just went to bed as soon as I got home because I just felt like the Lord let me down. The next day was obviously fast and testimony meeting and there was a lot of testimonies talking about why God sometimes doesnt answer our prayers. It was one of those face slapper moments that I knew I needed to hear that specific thing at that time. I pretty much realized that I had become pretty prideful in my missionary work, that I felt like I could just talk to anyone and convert them all by myself instead of relying solely upon the Lord for that help. I felt like I was a really good missionary up until yesterday haha. It was a hard lesson to learn but the Lord taught me that it is His work, and therefore it needs to be done His way. 

So the week ended super good!!! I learned something new that I needed to be taught the hard way, and so hopefully I can actually apply the lesson learned! Everyone else in the District was excited and understood that the Lord is just testing us, they are huge examples to me! Every one of them is a spiritual giant! 

Hope you all have a good week!

Elder Carper